Someone has, apparently, stated that I am…elitest. What makes someone an elitist? Let’s go poke wikipedia, because I loves me some wikipedia.
“Elitism is the belief or attitude that those individuals who are considered members of the elite—a select group of people with outstanding personal abilities, intellect, wealth, specialized training or experience, or other distinctive attributes—are those whose views on a matter are to be taken the most seriously or carry the most weight or those who view their own views as so; whose views and/or actions are most likely to be constructive to society as a whole; or whose extraordinary skills, abilities or wisdom render them especially fit to govern.“
Well that doesn’t sound terrible. I’m an officer-I’d assume that I was promoted due to some skill I displayed. As an officer, my opinion is to be taken seriously. So…let’s poke another resource, ye olde urban dictionary, to see if I can’t suss out the actual…intended meaning.
Someone who thinks he/she is beyond everyone else … A Person who thinks that everyone else is worthless and disabled. … elitists tend to be rude, cocky, arrogant, and very selfish; that’s the combination of a elitist.
Oh, well then. Okay.
I don’t know who said this (they said it to Steve, who said it to Josh, who mentioned it in passing to me) and thus, I have no idea what it is that I do to trigger this reaction. That, more than anything, vexed me.
Do I come off as cocky? Well yeah, sure, I probably do. Fuck, man, I’m sorry that I’ve been healing in this game for 4 years and have no problem acting like I have some vague idea of what I’m doing. Vague of course is the key word-I disc raid heal and BM hunter DPS for fuck’s sake, clearly I’m neither the best nor the brightest. I’m not going to tell you that my way is the one and only correct way because LOL IT ISN’T I just do whatever I find enjoyable. I find not sucking to be enjoyable, though, so I have this general idea of how to gear and what to do in a fight in order to produce some mild success. I am baffled when other people do not appear make the same effort.
I certainly don’t think that others are me are worthless. I may not want to bring some of them to progression raids ever again, but that’s not the same as thinking they are worthless. I consider myself to be a middling-skilled player. I am able to, for example, DPS and move out of The Bad most of the time. If you cannot both DPS and move out of The Bad, I am going to be a sad, exasperated panda. Especially since I’m a keyboard turner. I mean come on, guys. If I can do it, so can you.
Selfish? Here, take my raid slot. Take my loot. I don’t fucking care. I just want to kill pixels with friends.
Rude? …well, okay, fuck. Sure. I can be rude.
Is it just the fact that I raid with expectations? Holy shit, I expect you to be able to raid and not fuck up all the time, that’s just awful! Can’t pay attention to shit around you? Get DBM or something else like it! Your waltzing through Clouds of Yogg Farts is frustrating 9 other people, stop fucking doing it. Raiding isn’t public school, there isn’t a No Child Left Behind Act-if you can’t perform you can’t go. If you fuck up, we’ll let you know-not because we think you’re awful and we’re putting you down because we love kicking puppies, but so that you can…I don’t know…fix it?
And yeah maybe sometimes we-I-get frustrated because OH MY GOD HOW IS IT THAT HARD IF MY SCRUB ASS CAN DO IT-but we’re human. I’ve totally said things I really should have phrased differently. And you’re totally welcome to go “Hey Amber, watch it, woman!” And I’ll be all like “Oh shit, sorry.” And then we can move on. Or you can tell Steve I’m an elitist and I’ll sit here and /facepalm, one or the other…but the latter is totally less constructive.
I want my mistakes pointed out, too, so that I can try to not repeat them. I don’t really want to come off as a bitch-I may have high standards, I may be demanding, but I hold myself to the same standards and demands and I genuinely do not want to be disliked.