Ah, it’s that time again. Raid attendence drops, people stop paying attention, and all of a sudden we’re wiping on farm content.
Freya defeated us again last night, which has me wanting to cry in both sadness and anger. It’s Freya, for fuck’s sake. In Ulduar. She’s a keeper that we used to be able to down regularly. I don’t know where everyone’s head was, but if the trash wipes didn’t clue me in, a Freya pull by someone distracted by the TV should have. I want to kill Yoggy, people. :(
It’s a struggle for me, internally. I’m telling myself that it’s just a natural lull, the kind that BoO has survived over and over. Then there’s the part of my brain that is screaming YOU ARE THE MOST TERRIBLE GM EVER, and I hate that part. I’m flailing at my support network on a regular basis (I love you guys).
I GM’d once before, in BC. We had a cozy little group of friends, barely enough to scrape together a Kara. Then one day my co-GM and one of our precious healers transferred off server without warning, and I’m afraid I was rather gutted after that and the guild slowly dwindled away. Gwuh. Will not repeat.
I’ve got an officer who is perpetually MIA…no, actually, two officers who are perpeutally MIA, though one of them at least occassionaly shows up and leads an off night raid. Cranky Tank is on that wavering age of burn out and /game quit…again. Of the other three officers, one is the former GM and lord knows where his mind is…and the other two are also sort of wavering uncertainly in burn out/bored land. In other words, I’m really afraid to lean on anybody, and the number of people I feel I can count on is smaller than our number of officers.
Of course this just means that I’ll actually be leaning on the people who currently keep me raiding, officer or not. Myss. Oasic. Celaeno. Pyxy. Kyr. Rivyn. Atropus. Frost. All of you who joke around and generally make my nights amusing.
I have a couple of angry rants saved up, but I’m almost afraid to voice them. Perhaps tomorrow will be Pull Your Head Out Of Your Asses Lecture Day, where I talk about things like continuing to stare at the TV and not the computer when your GM on vent is going “EVERYONE BACK UP BACK UP BACK OH GOD THE BOSS PULLED” is pretty damn fail.
To cap the fail, I missed taming Loque by like…a minute. Then I hopped on my warrior and found Skoll’s corpse. Bwuh. Sad BM hunter is sad. /pokemons