I have heroics to grind on Lyrandre, Jamethera, and Lyestra. There’s also various guildies, including my sister, that I’d like to do more heroics with.
I have alts-a shaman, a mage, and a druid-that I want to level.
I’d like to take my alt to more of the guild runs if they need her, and pug VoA and stuff.
I have friends I’d like to RP with.
Yet…I don’t do any of those things that much. In fact, aside from raid days, I can be something of an absentee GM, and it’s not because I want to be. It’s because I’m always playing this game of tug o’ war with this game, other stuff I’m obsessed with (PONYS!), and a very awesome but semi-burned out boyfriend. Oh, and this whole measly 24 hours in a day thing that is rudely interrupted by work. And sleep. Fuck both those things, yo.
On any given day, it may go like this: I want to play WoW, but Josh does not want to play WoW, he wants to play Borderlands. Okay, let’s play Borderlands! I like Borderlands, so this is all well and good. Pew pew, I set things on fire!
Then it’s a raid night, and another raid night. With luck, I do some random heroics after the raid is done. Yay, badges! But then we have a free night and I want to play WoW some more…but Josh does not want to play WoW. He used up all of his desire for WoW tanking raids for me. So we RP, throwing posts back and forth via AIM. Well I have time between posts, so while doing this I can log onto WoW and RP, or I…play Dragon Age. Yay, pause button. Even when I poke into WoW RP, though, it’s on another sever because…uh, my priest is on a PvP server. No lolRPs there.
Then the next day I want to play WoW, but Josh does not want to play WoW…and unless he has another game to amuse himself with, then you’ve guessed it…I don’t play WoW, because I have a guilt complex that runs about five miles deep. Anyway. Next thing you know, I’m logging onto my shaman briefly to poke the AH and I glance at Josh’s rogue, who levels with my shaman. I see that he hasn’t logged on in two weeks. Ugh. So much for this alt I really really really want to level. Oh well, let’s RP with Josh some more! I can quest a bit between posts on my druid and…oh, right, I hate questing by myself, and I can’t instance and write at the same time. No one is around my RP servers and free to RP there, either. Hello, Dragon Age…
Then maybe it’s Friday. I get off work, I go to a riding lesson (PONYS), and afterwards it’s often Social Time With the Steve. No WoW that night. Saturdays it’s Fallout night, but that’s at six! Plenty of time, right? Well, no. I get up at 8, volunteer at a therapy barn from 9 am until 2, 2:30 pm (PONYS!). I get home and sometimes Josh is still asleep, so then I have to rouse him. That takes…a long time, some days, especially those in which I collapse next to him for a nap. If we have to clean or go grocery shopping then…well, no, I don’t typically touch WoW those days, either. Sometimes, though.
Sunday gets interrupted by laundry, but I may or may not wrangle some more WoW time then. Regardless, it’s surprisingly hard to blog 5 days a week about a game where I may only play it for 3. And more than that, occasionally someone will make some remark-jokingly, of course, but still some remark-about how I’m not around much, and it will send me into arm flailing guilt mode (I did mention the guilt complex).
I don’t mean to make this sound like Josh is a dick or anything. He’s just not as into the game as I am, and likes to do other things-often, with me. I mean I could say “No, I want to play WoW tonight” sometimes but I don’t. No one can be blamed for my must-please-everyone-else tendencies but me. Sometimes he’ll go binge on other games (Assassin’s Creed 2, for example) and then I’ll happily binge on WoW. But having had a significant other who played MASSIVE amounts of WoW and didn’t really want to spend time with me, I’ll gratefully accept someone on the other side of the spectrum…
…even if my shaman is level 38 forever and ever and ever.
I had no idea what to post about today, can you tell?