Posts Tagged Amber is a bitch
I’ve been on something of a warpath lately and I’m not sure why. At least, I can’t nail down every reason neatly.
And by “warpath” I mean “gone completely batshit in various peoples directions”. It’s the little things that set me off right now. Take, for example, tomorrow night’s sign ups. Why do I have officers not signed up? Why do I have someone in a position of import signed up on an alt despite my no-alt policy? Do you enjoy underminding my authority and making it look like I selectively enforce my rules? God you’re a silly git who hasn’t evn thought of it that way, I bet. AMBER SMASH RAWR RAWR.
Ahem. These are all problems that should be addressed face to face. And they will be dragged out at the next officer meeting, I assure you. But in the meantime I’m this tightly wound ball of Angry. This is not a good time for me to be Angry at WoW, not when I’m weighing other real life passions and going “you know if I gave up WoW I could have more pony timez!!!!!”
I don’t understand things like “well I don’t need anything on this character” as a reason to not attend raids. Reasons like that just DON’T EXIST for me. Back in Vanilla WoW, AQ40 held nothing for my paladin. Nothing. Not a single item, not when we started the instance and not when we cleared through C’thun trash. But I attended every single god damned raid becuase you know what? Other people wanted stuff from there and I enjoyed raiding with my guild. That is the sort of mindset I have: I raid for fun, and to play with friends. That is the standard I hold everyone else to, as well.
The more the gold gilt rubs off some players and I see what lies beneath, the unhappier I get. I’ve gone from having a 25 man guild making some solid headway, to a 10 man guild who can’t get their second, supposedly primary, ICC10 together. Because people would rather play their alts, no matter how badly we need their mains. Becuase well if we’re not doing 25s they don’t care (nevermind that canceling the 10 makes it almost impossible to retain the recruits needed for 25s). Because they don’t want join a partially ocmpleted run and miss out on frost badges on an alt. Becuase they’re not all exactly like me in thier motivations and I apparently can’t wrap my head around that thought right now.
I think I need to step back, go hug a pony, and try to find my sanity again. I’d take a break from raiding as well, but then what if raids get canceled becuase I’m not there and then I’m as bad as they are and OMG!!!!1!!eleventy!!!1
…excuse me I’ll be over here trying to stuff chocolate into my mouth so that I at least can’t say anything else overly stupid.
A lot of my infamous rage on this blog is, if not feigned, at least greatly exaggerated. Rants are funny, I like being funny, so what could be better than funny rants?
Underneath the faux rage is, however, a very real build up of genuine anger. I’m frustrated with some attitudes, and some people. And some day, I’m not going to bite my tongue anymore.
It’s already starting to show. Part of the problem is, of course, in my own attitudes. I often tell myself, in relation to horseback riding, that the horse only misbehaves as much as I let him. If I don’t get respect it’s because I’ve given people little to no reason to. If people don’t do what they’re supposed to, it’s because there’s no repercussions if they don’t.
I’m standing on the edge of changing all that. Brotherhood of Oblivion is my guild. Not Steve’s, not Josh’s, not anyone else’s. I do want as many people happy as possible, yes. It is not, in any way shape or form, all about me. But right now, it is not in my best interest or theirs that GMing BoO makes me miserable. And you know what? It’s making me miserable.
Not any more.
I have my pointy stick, and my sand, and I shall be drawing some lines. If you cross them I will POKE YOU IN THE MOTHER FUCKING EYE.
I want to continue having fun in raids, killing bosses while having ribald conversations about buttsechs-but I want to do it without being talked over in vent during loot. Tell jokes about how I get lost in Gruul’s and ToC, but don’t arms tank when I explicitly tell you not to. Be my lovably dorky crew without…you know…being douchebags.
The Amber is displeased. Why is the Amber displeased? Because I hate people getting their panties in a twist and ragequitting without, you know, discussing shit. When we post proposed changes on the officer forum and ask for your input, then we want your input. We do NOT want you to hike up your skirts, scream that you don’t like us anymore, and leave.
You want to do that, then fine, get your childish ass out of my mother fucking guild and good riddance. If you truly don’t like the way things are going, why don’t you sit down and discuss it? Concerned about new guild ranks diminishing the importance of people who don’t raid? Well, how about some alternatives? Where’s your ideas? I want your ideas. I don’t want your poorly typed out LJ-style flounce post.
We are not “ruining a social guild”. We are trying to shape up a raiding guild. Raiding, see that? Raaaaiiiiidiiiiiing. Raiding requires a certain amount of skill and discipline. Oh, and time investment. Do we have people in the guild who can’t play worth a shit? Well, yeah. But they’re friends and we love them and they hang out and occasionally we shove purples at them from a farming run. Do we have people in the guild who are skilled but can hardly run with us? Yes, and we miss them terribly, and squee with joy every time they DO get the chance to join us. Do we have good people who ARE here all the time, and are thus the raiding core? ….why yes, yes we do. We have and love all those kinds of people and we always have and we always will. Do the casuals really need full bank access to our raiding flasks and a Core Raider title? …no.
One of the most sissy of the flouncers actually told us that we didn’t have a good raiding core to build from. Wait, what? What the hell am I, chopped liver? Kyr? Zoja? Mach? Harryotter? Huntres? All those other people who do their job and do it well? And since when were we a social guild? What the fuck were we doing in Burning Crusade, having tea parties in SSC? I don’t remember tea parties, I remember tanking some mother fucking bosses and winning some mother fucking loot in a MOTHER FUCKING RAIDING GUILD.
So excuse me, I’m going to go recruit some more RAIDERS for our RAIDING GUILD. Then we are going to run some RAIDS. During said RAIDS, we are going to be SOCIAL and make fun of Mikata because it’s easy, and Harryotter is going to die and we’ll lol at him, and Zoja is going to pick on Huntres, and it’ll be fun. WHILE RAIDING.
So congrats, two officers who seldom participated anyway. Your previous contributions to the guild that once earned you your titles are missed, but shall no longer carry you through this expansion. You flounced. Now those of us who actually do the work these days will…uh…continue doing the work. So uh…nothing has changed, really, except that we’ll proceed with shifting the guild ranks and bank permissions with fewer badly typed rage posts on the forums*.
*My rage posts involve capital letters and spell check.