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I’ve been on something of a warpath lately and I’m not sure why. At least, I can’t nail down every reason neatly.
And by “warpath” I mean “gone completely batshit in various peoples directions”. It’s the little things that set me off right now. Take, for example, tomorrow night’s sign ups. Why do I have officers not signed up? Why do I have someone in a position of import signed up on an alt despite my no-alt policy? Do you enjoy underminding my authority and making it look like I selectively enforce my rules? God you’re a silly git who hasn’t evn thought of it that way, I bet. AMBER SMASH RAWR RAWR.
Ahem. These are all problems that should be addressed face to face. And they will be dragged out at the next officer meeting, I assure you. But in the meantime I’m this tightly wound ball of Angry. This is not a good time for me to be Angry at WoW, not when I’m weighing other real life passions and going “you know if I gave up WoW I could have more pony timez!!!!!”
I don’t understand things like “well I don’t need anything on this character” as a reason to not attend raids. Reasons like that just DON’T EXIST for me. Back in Vanilla WoW, AQ40 held nothing for my paladin. Nothing. Not a single item, not when we started the instance and not when we cleared through C’thun trash. But I attended every single god damned raid becuase you know what? Other people wanted stuff from there and I enjoyed raiding with my guild. That is the sort of mindset I have: I raid for fun, and to play with friends. That is the standard I hold everyone else to, as well.
The more the gold gilt rubs off some players and I see what lies beneath, the unhappier I get. I’ve gone from having a 25 man guild making some solid headway, to a 10 man guild who can’t get their second, supposedly primary, ICC10 together. Because people would rather play their alts, no matter how badly we need their mains. Becuase well if we’re not doing 25s they don’t care (nevermind that canceling the 10 makes it almost impossible to retain the recruits needed for 25s). Because they don’t want join a partially ocmpleted run and miss out on frost badges on an alt. Becuase they’re not all exactly like me in thier motivations and I apparently can’t wrap my head around that thought right now.
I think I need to step back, go hug a pony, and try to find my sanity again. I’d take a break from raiding as well, but then what if raids get canceled becuase I’m not there and then I’m as bad as they are and OMG!!!!1!!eleventy!!!1
…excuse me I’ll be over here trying to stuff chocolate into my mouth so that I at least can’t say anything else overly stupid.
I take many gquits personally.
I take them even more personally when I liked to call some people friends, but they go from discussing the guild issues with me to not even talking to me at all, and then finally leaving without saying goodbye.
Regardless, it is now time to take a deep breath and move on. There’s ICC10s to run–perhaps “mine” will be less altariffic now, and we can finally get some real attempts on Sindy, and then finally LK. There’s an ICC25 to ressurect, despite my ambivilance towards it. There’s recruitment to resume, and new guildies we’ve aquired already to settle in…
A lot of stress has acutally shed off my shoulders, and I momentarily have some more game time. With luck, the blog will perk up again. You’ll get a lot of Alt Leveling Tales, and less Bubble Priesting, but that is better than silence!
LFD rants, ahoy!
Sometimes I’m reminded of my high school creative writing class. I tend to write in a fairly straight forward fashion, even when it comes to poetry. I had come to disdain the over-use of metaphors back when we’d read been tortured by A Farewell to Arms. As far as I’m concerned, Hemmingway can go die. In the rain.
She’d read the peice and then hand it back to me, full of excited commentary about my use of metaphor and symbolism. I’d tilt my head and wonder what on earth she was smoking while she graded papers, becuase fuck if I’d intended any of the stuff she read into my work.
Sometimes, GMing gives me the same feeling.
I am back from Disneyworld and expressing mild displeasure at the Chicago weather once more. Twenty or so degrees colder here, blah!
Of course this also means I have to dive back into whatever guild messes have cropped up in my absence, and find myself facing down my own disgruntlement.
I love GMing. I also hate GMing. It comes down to this deep sense of responsibility I bear for…well, every god damned thing. On one hand, it pushes me to be the best GM I can. On the other hand, when other people don’t live up to my inner grandoise standards, I can get…resentful. Even if said resentment is born of a situation I created my own damned self.
The guild culture in BoO is relaxed compared to some. Can’t make some raids due to RL? Okay, cool. Whatever. Shit happens. Join us when you can. We raid, but not everyone in the guild is a raider. People sometimes bounce between Raiding and Not Raiding depending on what is going on. Or by choice.
And you know, for the most part, that’s fine. A problem crops up when several people say eh, I don’t like 25s as much, and I only want to do 10s. All around the sane time. A situation that is definitely brewing, if not already happening, in BoO.
*takes a deep breath*
I’m the GM. The guild focus is currently 25s. It will remain 25s until our heads are bloodied against that wall, if my reading of the officer core that runs the guild is correct. This means that if we loose too many people to do 25s, it’s back to the recruitment/canceled raid grind I hate so much. This also means that my limited raiding time is locked into those two 25 man days a week, no matter what happens. I am not the only one who is probably locked into those days either, as people have had to tweak work and school schedules to make those days. This means that there’s at least a handful of people that are affected every single time a 25 man raid is called due to numbers. We can’t split into 10s–there’s already guild 10s going during other days of the week. People are saved. A canceled ICC 25 turns into a ToC 25 or…nothing.
A canceled ICC 25 means that I don’t get to raid, because I can’t make most of those 10s, or at best, only 1 day of 2. I don’t really feel that it’s fair to the rest of that group to do that on a regular basis, though I’m glad to step in if they need and ask me to.
I will keep the 25s going as best I can because that is my job. It is the responsibility that I willingly took on.
But I can’t help but be jealous of others ability to step back and do 10s. I, too, love the cozier atmosphere of 10s (though I don’t love 25s any less). I will miss the people that have decided that they are done with 25s becuase…well, now I won’t get to raid with them, and I consider some of them friends. Meanwhile I’ll recruit and wheedle and beg and fill raids with people who…probably shouldn’t even be there until we’re in a good spot again. Maybe I’ll make new friends! But I’ll complain about it anyway.
YES I MADE MY BED AND I WILL LIE IN IT BUT I RESERVE THE RIGHT TO BITCH THE ENTIRE GOD DAMNED TIME.
But this post has been entirely too bitter. For those of you who missed the OMG CAPS announcement on Twitter during my vacation, my dear Cranky Tank proposed just after the EPCOT fireworks, and because I’m just as crazy as he is, I said yes. Everyone who also follows my personal blog is therefore OFFICIALLY WARNED as to future wedding related contents and may now flee before it is too late.
Oh, and the promised picture of a SMILING Bubbles will be posted as soon as a pry it off the lap top!
I wanted to be working on my story today, or on an April Fool’s post, but you know what? I spent the entire morning fixing FUCKING DKP! And making official posts so people will stop asking me about OMG THE SARONITE IN THE BANK CAN I HAS?!?!
YES YOU CAN HAS.
YOU CAN HAS THE GUILD, IN FACT.
I have a standing offer in another guild where I am BM hunter my heart out!
To hell with you and your Twitters and IMs and emails and OMG AMBER FIX NAO stuff. >:|
I used all my writing mojo writing a post on the officer forums today. Naturally this leaves me sitting here staring at a blank wordpress page…so I decided I could just copy and paste my forum post!
It’s not sensitive information (or juicy, soap opera-esque drama) so I think it’s safe enough to plaster across the interwebs.
The topic was offspec gear. BoO uses DKP in 25 man raids, but if no one wishes to have an item for their main spec, then it goes to off spec rolls and costs 0 DKP. The debate arose over whether or not a pure DPS class should be allowed to roll for off spec gear. We’re leaving weapons out of the equation because they can be a slightly different kettle of fish, if you’re wondering.
Here, there, is my opinion on pure DPS classes rolling on off spec gear against the tanks and healers:
Healers and tanks both, due to the nature of raiding, sometimes HAVE to DPS in the raid. Either the fight requires a varying number of tanks, or the fight requires a varying number of healers. Also consider that as we get better at content, we need less healers…leading, potentially, to having to bench several of our healers as we PROGRESS in content.
That in mind, tanks and healers both have a legitimate claim to off set gear for a raid setting. If DPS were allowed to roll on “offspec” gear along side the tanks and healers, then this would drastically reduce the chance of them getting any offspec gear, leaving them-and the raid-at a disadvantage. I’m already competing for MAIN spec gear with the DPS as well as my fellow healers, due to the quirks of my class and spec (we can’t all be holy paladins). I don’t have DKP to spare, either. If the DPS claims their main spec loot, and then starts claiming their off spec loot…well, if I’m doing 3k on a boss fight later in my Ulduar10 DPS gear because the mage needed 3 robes for his 3 different specs…that’d be why. As a pure DPS you can DPS as Y spec in X spec ideal gear. The holy paladin can’t do jack shit in her healing gear as ret. I’m not sure how this disadvantage is less damaging to the raid than the pure DPS not being optimal for some fights. DPS has never been optimal for all fights. This is why you like to have variety in your raid group.
While some stats may not be OPTIMAL on certain gear, that doesn’t mean it’s automatically offspec and available gratis. I mean fuck, if you want to do that, then half of my gear was really offspec gear because it’s better for holy than for disc. And take my hunter-the quirks of a BM hunter mean that to get anywhere I’m wearing a lot of stuff that doesn’t have OPTIMAL stats.
I think that allowing DPS to roll on “off spec” gear is a path I don’t care to go down. For one thing, not everyone knows the ideal stats for certain specs and classes. Not everyone agrees with them, either. What seems like an obvious offspec piece to you might not seem that way to JimBob over there, leaving the officers with a lot of potential misunderstandings and hurt feelings to soothe.
Think back to the days before dual specs. You didn’t swap specs for this fight or that one. You just knew you were good for some fights and not so good for others. Not everyone has dual specs, either-they aren’t a necessity for raiding, as helpful as they are. I do not feel that content is so tightly tuned for non-hardmode raids that the DPS needs the best gear for multiple specs, not when the tanks and healers are just as if not more likely to use the same gear in any given encounter.